how the hell did one of the most awkward kids in my middle school and one of the most annoying girls i know manage to get married (not to each other) before me? is there something wrong with me?

why am i am i always able to convince myself that people hate me? seriously, i analyze things WAY too much.

so i was thinking about meeting my friend in amsterdam for a few days and then i realized that i have to pay rent. why does rent always get in the way of me having fun? damn you!! maybe i can work around it. i think i have an idea :]

ps: falling asleep at midnight, getting up at 2am, and not being able to fall back asleep kinda blows.

i think i have way too much on my mind at the moment. eh. i give it a few days and i'll be fine.

it's 3℉ (-16℃) outside!! oh man, if i thought it was cold last night. jesus, i'm going to die!! i think i'm going to stay indoors today. it's a good day for movie watching and reading :] i might venture out, we'll see. i can't stay locked up forever, ha. plus, the sun is out... that always makes me happy. i do need to go to the store though, bleh.

joe is will be here on thursday!! i never knew living by yourself could be a bit boring.

that is all

i am alive... that is all.

my box is still in vienna. wtf?!

i need to go winter clothes shopping and not just a few pairs of pants, long sleeve shirts, and a coat. i'm talking about winter clothes shopping to survive a russian winter. i've been looking around for boots and parkas, but everything is so expensive! DAMN YOU COLD WEATHER!

on another note: my sleep schedule is messed up. i keep getting up at 7:00am. at least it isn't as bad as it was in russia. i should be fine in a few days.

that is all.

it's about 6:45am in st. petes. i've been up all night just so i could see the election results. i'm such a loser... le sigh.

i'm so tired.

i have a test today that i haven't studied for AND a one-on-one individual lesson. i'm fucked.

i'm wishing everyone a happy halloween!!! stay safe my lovelies :]

if monday night was a prequel to what the rest of my trip is going to be like... oh snap! i went out with a few guys from my class to this bar called mod. we had some crazy times... i will leave it at that. buuuut on that note, i found my bar :]

i'm going to the ballet tomorrow. i am quite excited! i'm seeing "swan lake." it's going to be fabulous.

two more weeks in russia... le sigh.

next week is moscow!

i've been offered a job in st. petes if i don't manage to fuck myself over. i'm actually thinking about it. we'll see if it actually happens.

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ps: if this is posted a million times, i'm sorry. everything is in russian so i'm having a bit of trouble :/

i'm going to new york tomorrow!!!

next week... san fran baby :D

that is all.

i'm postponing little rock for a week.

is it sad that i kinda feel bad for mccain :|

today i pulled the dishwasher out so i could put an outlet behind it so i don't have to unplug the garbage disposal every time i wash dishes, and there was a hole in one of the pipes. i almost flooded my kitchen again, but this time i wrapped the hole in a bunch of towels and put a cooler under the leak so i avoided the flooding of the kitchen. BUT once again i could not turn off the water, so who did i call... roto rooter. i called them cause their pipe was the one that got the hole in it and i thought i deserved to have the work done for free, but when the guy got here he tried telling me that the pipe that had the hole in it was not the pipe that he installed... BULLSHIT! then i changed the valve on the sink that last time he was over here, he told me that it needed to be fixed. well, if it needed to be fixed why the fuck wasn't it fixed last time. this whole thing is ridiculous. i read the back of the receipt when i got it last time, and i'm supposed to have a 1 yr guarantee on PARTS and labor and a 120 guarantee on anything having to do with sinks. i honestly don't think that i should have paid today because of the guarantee... but noooo, i ended up having to pay $337 (i got charged for time and a half cause it was a holiday) for something that i would not be having to deal with if it wasn't for the pipe that roto rooter used. fuck me!

on a lighter note: i got my brother's address today so i will be writing him a letter. i miss the kid.

that is all.

mstrkrft is going to be in dallas in october and i'm going to miss them :[

i'm sitting in my hotel in cancun super bored out of my mind. my body hurts from sunburn and everyone officially left me today :[ i've been here for a week. i've spent to much money and done almost everything and then some (aside from a few things that were out of the budget). did i mention i'm tire of this "relaxing." although, i had good times i can't wait to go home tomorrow.

i went to bed at 4:00am.

i've been up since 6:30am... and i'm wade awake.

i leave for the airport around 1:00pm.

I still haven't packed.

wtf?!

since jagger and absinthe both taste like liquorish and jagger bombs are so delicious, then would an absinthe bomb (?) taste just as delicious?